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Apr 19, 2014

Our first moments (remembered as you turn 3 weeks).



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Dear Miriam, today you are three weeks old and I wonder how we are here already and yet at the same time it seems it must be longer because I almost forget what it feels like not to have you here in my arms, here a part of our family, our little girl.

I think back to the evening of your birth, and the pain is a distant memory (Does God make it that way on purpose?) and the clearest thing I remember is the crazy joy I felt when I heard your cry (you announced your arrival the second you could) and I picked up your warm little body and held you close.

 We didn't know, this whole pregnancy, whether you were a boy or a girl and didn't have a preference either way, so it surprised me how happy I was to see we had a daughter, how right this felt. Your daddy told me afterward that I kept saying "A girl, our baby girl!!" but I was so focused on you I didn't realize I said anything, I was just laughing and so happy.

We've both realized very quickly it's true what they say - love for the second little one comes easily, not taking away any love from the first, but springing from a fresh supply in our hearts.

We love you, much much more than I can communicate with words, but how we look forward to raising you and living this love out in a million ways over the years ahead as you grow!


Note: Some of you asked about the birth story - I did start to write a post on this but didn't finish - I love to read birth stories (and did record Joshua's birth) but as I typed it somehow felt too personal to share on here. But for your curiosity, the very condensed version would be that I labored all day at home, was eight centimeters dilated by the time we got to the hospital, and Miriam was born naturally a few hours later. It was a long, tiring day, the delivery seemed more intense and painful than my first, but the end result was of course more than worth it :)



Mar 31, 2014

She's here!






We are thankful to God for the safe delivery of a healthy baby girl!! Miriam Sophia, born Saturday, March 29th at 9:24pm - 7 lbs, 10 oz and 20.5 inches long. 
More to come when things settle down...meanwhile, I have a newborn baby to snuggle!



Mar 26, 2014

Sanity hour ramblings.


Right now it is sanity hour at our house...which means that after one too many outbursts (Joshua, not me) my toddler was put to bed, water for tea was promptly boiled, and a vanilla candle lit at the living room desk. I probably need a nap as well but the tea seemed more tempting so here I sit, resolved to get another post up before the inevitable happens - labour, of course! So, some random bits and pieces for my own remembrance and your reading enjoyment (I will assume).



On our baby toddler: Today is not his day, thus the early nap. The blocks wouldn't fit together right, there was a peanut butter smear on his arm (how disturbing), the right song wasn't playing on the computer, he slipped on a piece of paper while walking across the kitchen floor....the list could go on but each issue brought tears or objects hurled across the room in frustration or a full-fledged temper tantrum on the floor. And he's only sixteen months! We are starting to have some little challenges with this firstborn of ours but I do love his personality and wouldn't trade his determination or passion for a more docile personality even if it meant easier parenting. And the other side of him is all sweetness and joy so it balances out. We just pray for patience and wisdom as he grows! How I love this kid.

On (the upcoming) birth:  I think I am more nervous this time around. Joshua's birth was much easier than I expected birth to be, and Lord willing this will be another relatively short and calm delivery, so I am not sure why the increase in anxiety. Maybe because I know what it's like this time around and the memory of the really intense and painful parts of birth are coming back to me with perfect clarity. But I am trying to focus less on that and more on the feeling of holding that newborn in my arms for the first time! And I am so so excited that we don't know the gender this time around, it will be a fun surprise! As of today we have four days to go until the expected due-date!

On drawing near to Christ: This is something that has been much on my mind in these days of nesting and preparing and looking forward...I can get so caught up in getting things done and my mind is a running commentary on a thousand things, but only one thing is really necessary, and I need to keep reminding myself of this, to sit at Jesus' feet and learn from Him, both when I am desperate and needy and when it most feels like a discipline.

I've also been remembering the brain fog that hit me so hard the first weeks (months?) after my first was born, and how difficult it was to focus and spend quality time in the Word. How would I advise myself now? To keep reading, even if it feels like nothing is sticking! To keep drawing near, to pour out honest thoughts in prayer (often), to ask for grace, because He is so faithful to supply exactly what we need.

So these days I am trying to carve out time in the mornings to pray, to read through Ephesians, to journal a bit or read a portion of this book which is applicable to every season of life but especially so right now, I'm finding - these truths of the incarnation - God becoming man in Christ Jesus and experiencing life as frail, human flesh. I could write a lot on this but I will just summarize by saying how comforting it has been to take a closer look at our loving, compassionate, sympathizing Saviour. A worship experience, really. 

Other reading: I picked up a copy of Middlemarch at the library recently. I was looking for some fiction to have on hand for middle of the night feedings and other spare moments and read some reviews on this classic novel online...apparently some say it might be the best english novel ever written? We'll see how far I get, but I'm looking forward to the challenge!

A recent project: I wanted some fresh, springy pillows for our living room and kept seeing (and coveting) pillows that cost $45, at least. Definitely not fitting in our budget so I decided to make some myself using free fabric samples that my husband brought home a couple years ago when he worked at a textiles store. Yep, free! I have sewn about twice since I was twelve or so (unless you count stitching buttons back on) so I am very happy with the result! It's envelope style at the back (lots of tutorials online) and the front is just hemless pieces sewn overtop my squares and then washed to fray (Inspiration taken from my friend Kendra's quilt). Very easy...and probably the last creative project I get to tackle for a while.


My sister's baby shower: Loved having a baby shower for my sister, which several of us collaborated on. And look, my sister-in-law posted pictures so I can be lazy and simply link you there to see the lovely (and very pregnant) Chrissy. (Thanks, Kaitlin!)

And there are other things I could write about but I hear grumps coming from the baby-monitor which means it's time to get in gear again.




Mar 4, 2014

These days...



It really seems unbelievable that in less than a month (or so) we'll become a family of four, that I'll be mama to two. I've thought about writing a pregnancy update post so many times and just realized tonight as I sat down that I haven't actually posted anything about this pregnancy other than announcing it back in the fall before we went on our internet break.

The time has went by so fast, especially in comparison to what I remember about being pregnant with our first. These last weeks I am anxious and so very excited to have this baby in my arms but at the same time somewhat nervous about labor and feeling unprepared. (Is anyone ever really prepared?)

I have a mental list of things-to-do-before-baby and nesting has definitely set in for me as I've been purging and cleaning out cupboards and even doing little decor projects around the house.  And then there are days when I want to do nothing but stay in pajamas and cuddle and tickle my little boy and play all day and soak up these fleeting last moments of him being my baby.

 I can't wait for him to have a sibling and for all that lies ahead but this is me, sentimental at every approaching change, wanting what's coming but at the same time aching for time to stand still just a little bit longer.

My sister and her husband (who live a couple hours away) are expecting their first baby ten days after I'm due so it will be interesting to see who goes first, or how many days apart. I was right on my due date last time but anything could happen! She carries bigger than me but I still feel this picture is flattering to my actual size. And I have been told that I now waddle...sigh.

 I love it that we are pregnant together - I don't get to see Chrissy as often as I would like but we smile remembering the days (not very long ago) when we were both single and wondering if we'd ever be married or have children. But here we are, prayers answered and both very thankful for God's provision.



Oh, and a fun fact - we don't know if we're having a boy or a girl this time around but I got another look at baby on an ultrasound today and the technician was laughing about how much hair this little one appears to have - crazy how clearly it showed up, floating out behind the head. I can't wait to see! 

Twenty six days to go and counting...